Where are u?

Where were you when i needed u most?
What have you done when i needed u most?
I'm going crazy but no one actually knows...
OR in fact, no one actually cares....

Feel like flying like a bird,
and jump down from the sky.
Feel like swimming like a fish,
and drown myself in the water.
Feel like being on cloud nine,
by swallowing all the drugs.......

And would anyone care if i really do so?
What am i living for?
I dunno anymore....