missing u....

In singapore everyday since i came back from houston... 3 days off + Dhaka turn + Jakarta turn + Jakarta turn(last min taken off the flight) + off days + Bangkok turn tmr...... then finally Zurich..... *tada*

Including my Bangkok, it'll be a total of 11 days in Singapore... It's nice... except for all the turnarounds... but it's still nice, cos i seem to be able to see Peng everyday....

Thought we'll be able to play bowling today again, but he got called up for Capetown last minute... I didn't feel the pinch initially.. He was the one feeling sucky having to do a flight he doesn't really like, but when he was about to leave, i felt a sense of loneliness creeping into me...

He's gone now... and we won't see each other till i'm back from Zurich... which is one week away.... Feeling lonely... suddenly.... Have not felt like this for a long time....
I'm probably having my pms.... that's why i'm feeling emotional... plus i'm still sick...

Really dislike this feeling.... take it away from me....

Then came the thought that couple coding sounds like a good idea..... but marriage sounds bad.... Haiz....... +1-1=0

"My Boyfriend"

I figured that i'm an irritating person most of the time... Cos i never fail to mention about "My Boyfriend" in front of other people....

My world seemed to be surrounded only by my boyfriend and watever i do or i've done, has something to do with him.... it's true that he's a big part of my life, but i have to get rid of this bad habit....

To a point when a colleague asked me:"who's ur boyfriend?"...... The question came across as though he's someone really great, and she's so curious to find out who this guy really is and why is he so great..... haha.....

The point is..... he's someone really important to me.....

Tormented for 24hrs...

The long 24hours of paxing flight is finally over... From Houston to Moscow to Singapore.... Now i'm finally home... With a horrible jet-lag...

Woke up 2 hrs ago... Now at 3 am in the morning, i'm wide awake, trying to find something to do... i guess this cycle of waking up when the world is sleeping is gonna last throughout my 3 off days....

Slept since afternoon when i came home from the paxing flight... Didn't have much time to spend with zhou, and he is now gone for his bombay flight... Have to wait till saturday before i can see him... I actually woke up at 5pm, desperately looking for him... cos i didn't realise that he'd already left for his flight....

I was really tired.... although i slept a lot on board.... Sorry dear..... Miss u....

Good Bad Flight....

Flight was easy... Easy 11.5hrs.... Passengers were extremely nice, Crew were much closer to me after the 5 days together on this long flight..... BUT..... I met the most horrible complex leader, by far.......

I like to think tat i can take challenges, trying to learn from my dearest.... But my tear still dropped uncontrollably under the merciless creature who threw his tanthrum at me unreasonably....... The one who gave my bf an extremely good impression...... I strongly believe that he made a wrong judgement......

He's an easy going guy in a way, everything can be done the shortcut way..... In another word, he's just pure lazy.... He's the most lazy complex leader so far as well.....
Everything has to be done his way, and as i was helping out the forward galley with their service, i was screamed at (during the second time helping them), not listening to him the first time......

Well, it's my fault not following his instructions, but did i mention that i dropped the entire drink cart while doing the drink service, and i injured both my shins when the lower portion of the cart lifted and hit directly on my poor shins.....
Therefore the forward had to use their cart to cover my aisle while my cart was in a mess.... Thus feeling guilty for delaying their service, i felt obliged to help them, as one of the crew seemed unhappy abt the delay.....

And thus, i was stucked in the middle of instruction and obligation..... And choosing the later ended me in my poor state...... His temperament went up and down throughout the flight, shouting at me one moment and joking with me the next..... And with the combination of the traumatising falling cart, i almost went nuts..........

Lucky thing was, i made it through, and from the incident, i found out from the rest of the crew that this guy actually had a horrible reputation...... So i feel good knowing that the problem doesn't lie with me........

I'm just so glad that it's over........ God bless......

Free from Nonsense for 9 Days....

I'm glad that i won't have to face the nonsensical topic for more than a week... Hibernating in Dubai now... Kinda bored, but considered to be in a relax mood....

Comparing to back at home with the uptight situation caused by my sensitive emotions, it's better to be bored here... Running away in a way...

Yeah, my sensitivity is getting a little over-board, but it's all caused by a series of incidents.... Creating scenarios, accomplice in hiding stories, etc.... How dramatic was that.... How can i not be sensitive after all that??? I started to feel that i'm the female-lead in all the events that surrounds him.....

I've been thinking a lot.... Too much.... Then i started getting advises from people.... Not very positive ones.... Which made me think even more.....

Monday not so blue.....

Did a Penang turn today... Easy flight... Short and sweet....
Drove dad's car to and fro.... nice.... But sprained my right wrist while closing the compartments.... Still feeling the pain right now.... Think i gotta head to the doctor for a consultation in case it worsen.....

Went for a pool session with a new friend, a new Mr Phang.... and i lost...... damn...... he's lucky.... cos i still think i'm good.... haha..... so i owe him a drink now....
Gonna meet Darling Sharifah tmr for lunch... It's been ages since i met her... Bet we've got lots to catch up..... Probably meeting Jinglin and Xiaoling for KTV session tmr night.....

Looking forward to tmr..... Packed with activities..... *Happy*

My mind is set.....

i Made a huge decision........

Mind ur own business....

I hate it when people interfere with my relationship.... or comment about my relationship..... Especially when her own relationship is a mess... at least to me......

When 2 person are having problem in their relationship, who are others to comment on it, even though it concerns her siblings..... Cos one'll nv understand what the couple is going through........ cos i'm nv able to understand why her relationships are in such mess, always.......

Miss my frens....

Met up with gwen and matt just now... shared a bottle of red wine....

It's nice meeting them, cos i really missed them..... Especially when i have not-so-good flights.... But so far so good la.... touch wood....

Seeing and talking to them made me feel so warm..... Like having someone there for me again.... Then again, i miss Abu Dhabi and my friends.... Looking at some of their pictures, made me wanna be there for a while.... just a while, cos i dun wanna go back there for good.... hee....

Life's not complicated, but i always make it complicated with the sophisticated mind of mine...... Haiz..... I'm not sure what i want anymore....... I'm not sure what i love anymore....... I have a feeling that i'm gonna do something stupid again soon.......

Roster..... Whatever.....

I think i dun really bother about the outcome of my new rosters anymore.... As long as it's not that horrible of course.....

Regardless of whether it's a shopping station or a nothing-to-do station, i'm still capable of finding something to spend on..... It's one of my talent i guess....

I'll just go for flight and come back home to sleep, and then go for the next flight..... Sounds sad isn't it? It's not that bad actually..... I just like to exagerate, cos i'm extremely bored right now...... I miss Abu Dhabi and everyone there....... Gosh......

Life Goes On.....

Peaceful but not quite....

Life may seem peaceful on the surface, but deep down inside, the current may be so strong that u can never imagine... I guess it happens frequently in real life too... Things are happening, but people choose to oversee them, or simply do not wish to bother about it....

I'm very tired about what's happening. The ups and downs are driving me crazy. I can choose to make a big hoo-haa over it, but i choose to ignore it, thinking that things will be better after a while. But seems like it's getting worse. I'm tired....

Work seems great... Travelling around, seeing places that i've not been to... Taking loads of pictures and buying stuff.... But my high expectation at work, made me really upset about myself... Bad check reports are driving me nuts... Not that i'm incapable. I rather i'm incapable, but i'm not.... Getting bad reports are beyond my control, but i'm affected badly, unnecessarily....

My paranoia nature adds dark colours to my life.... I started worrying not only about myself, but about my relatives too.... I hope my aunt will overcome her financial problem soon, cos i really can't help much now..... For the rest of my relatives: Pls do not add on to my worries....

I'm tired..... tired..... tired........

Give me a BREAK......................