Something Meaningful....

I will try not to live my Life satisfying every Want.... Similarly, i will not live my life satisfying Everyone....

How wonderful life can be...

Can life be more wonderful? When everyone around is safe and sound.. When u dun have to worry much about money.. When u have the one u love to love u.. and when u're in the dream job u've always wanted....

It seems great, when everything is heading the right direction. This is how life should be. But we'll never know when will another crisis hits you unexpectedly... Therefore preparing for the worse situation is the best method to counter the uncertainties in life.

My 100th blog

It's been a long while since i last blogged, as usual. Training isn't that tough, but it's really tiring having to wake up so early every morning. That made me a zombie, thus having to log online is a real chore.

Life has been good. Not so much drama. Went on alright, not that great either.
But these few weeks have been interesting due to the advises that i've got and the ability to change my viewpoint in a way or another.

I've changed to look at things more lightly. Trying to make myself feel better. Lowering my expectations and being able to lower my competitiveness.
It's difficult, but it feels good doing it bit by bit.

I'm gonna continue practicing the low profile and humble attitude. And i really need all the support and advises that i'm getting now.

Bad bad again...

Started with a very bad sensitive nose on tuesday and went on to a very bad throat inflammation yesterday and started having flu and blocked nose this morning... Feeling rather sick and need lots of rest, but the training doesn't allow me to have the luxurious rest tat i need...

Went for the US visa application followed by collection of uniform accessories yesterday. The day went by pretty fast, but it was quite a bad day for all of us. The whole class, except for me, had to wake up especially early, cos i always have to wake up tat early. Therefore they were feeling exhausted from the travelling, but the most irritating part was the screw up in the arrangement to collect the uniform...

Our uniforms were supposed to be requisited, but there was some kinda miscommunication, thus everyone had to re-requisite, and it was a big screw up. Although everything was eventually resolved, we didn't really have to go through all the hassles in the first place.

We ought to be like a team and not blame anybody, provided that somebody provided us with an explaination, instead of keeping quiet like nothing had happened. I'd not blame anyone too if somebody bothered to at least try to explain, but too bad... Irresponsibility comes naturally....

As the days go by, more and more true colours are showing, and i'm sad to say that - most human-beings are ugly....

moody monday blues...

I haven't had such a bad day for quite a while. Moody Ms Janice burst out some sacarstic remarks during our food tasting session...

Really wanted to hold my words, but it spurted out, as usual. Felt horrible afterwards. Trying so hard to maintain good relationship with others, but being unfriendly is so much easier. The boiling feeling in me fluctuated around 90+ degree celsius, and the agitation made me boil into steam.

Mr Chia called me in the morning to inform that he'll be on 2 weeks MC, thus the class will be left alone without an instructor. The exam is just around the corner, and i'm as worried as everyone else.
Wondering wat could be done to make sure everyone pass. Feeling so obliged to make sure things will work out. Somehow i feel that the arrow is pointed at me. But at least i know that Mr Chia trusts me.

Felt disappointed. A sense of betrayal from someone whom i thought was the closest to me.
I'm not sure if i am thinking too much. How should i feel when someone suggested that i should not do certain thing to help the class as it may lead to some complications, but in the end did the same thing herself?

Life is full of scheming people, and they're apparently everywhere... I'm disappointed.....

Dramatic weekend

Had fun, laughter and a bit of drama during our class's night's out on friday.

It was a fun-filled evening. Went to zouk initially and swapped over to MOS, as tat's the only place all of us can get in FOC. Played some stupid games and got drunk. It's good to play stupid things at times, as it can bring out the life within oneself, but it's not tat good if u get drunk and acted stupidly infront of everybody.

I was behaving really childishly before we went to supper. Weeped like a baby infront of my new friends. I always get emotional when i drink. Bad Bad.... Hope i didn't scare the hell out of them...

Looking forward to the next clubbing outing, but let's hope the embarrassing part doesn't repeat itself...