Finally almost finish packing my stuff. Gave a lot away, threw a lot away and left a lot right here in abu dhabi, at my 'home'... not anymore though...
Have been at home for more than a week. Felt so bored and wished that i'd have requested to leave earlier. Now, only a few hours away from leaving this house, i'm feeling a little lost. A sense of fear creeped into me...
Fear of losing everything, fear of leaving some friends, fear of going back to the past, fear of a new beginning. Of course my excitement is way over my fear, but the scary feeling took over me at this point in time.
My batchmates and some other friends did a farewell for me yesterday. I had dinner with Gayle, her bf, Duncan and erick at rockbottom again, and we headed to Zenith after that, not knowing that there were many more friends waiting for me there. Duncan arranged the rest to be there to do a farewell for me... it's so nice to know that i've friends like that.
I always like suprises, and that was a real suprise for me. I never had anyone arranging something like that for me, cos usually i was the one who'd do it, therefore i was caught off my guard and i felt really happy.
As expected, they kept giving me drinks and i got emotional after drinking, i hugged everyone and started crying... Felt really upset to leave these beautiful people. Shared wonderful moments with them, despite of many unhappy times here in abu dhabi...
Colours were added to my Life in Abu Dhabi because of these people and i'll never forget them... ...
Sunday, 27 January 2008
Friday, 25 January 2008
Freaking Bus Drivers
Zann took my id ticket to go back to singapore for the SQ interview via Etihad. So i tot it'd be nice to send her off at the airport since it's like my territory in AUH.
Woke up at 6.30am to prepare myself, and reached my lobby around 7.20am to find out that a bus just left 30 seconds before i came down. The problem with this buses is that they never turn up at the correct timing. So i had no choice but to wait for the next bus that's supposed to arrive at 7.40, in the end arrived at around 8am.
When i got up the bus, the driver immediately told me that if there's not enough seats at the next pick up destination, i'll have to drop off, but before he drove off, he ask me to leave the bus. I was so pissed with all the waiting and now, i can't even take the transport.
I wanted to take a taxi, but couldn't get one, so in the end i came home. Now i'm worried that zann's not able to board the flight, cos her driver told her that the flight is very full. If i can make it there, i could've requested a jumpseat for her, but i feel so helpless now...
Worrying in agony....
Woke up at 6.30am to prepare myself, and reached my lobby around 7.20am to find out that a bus just left 30 seconds before i came down. The problem with this buses is that they never turn up at the correct timing. So i had no choice but to wait for the next bus that's supposed to arrive at 7.40, in the end arrived at around 8am.
When i got up the bus, the driver immediately told me that if there's not enough seats at the next pick up destination, i'll have to drop off, but before he drove off, he ask me to leave the bus. I was so pissed with all the waiting and now, i can't even take the transport.
I wanted to take a taxi, but couldn't get one, so in the end i came home. Now i'm worried that zann's not able to board the flight, cos her driver told her that the flight is very full. If i can make it there, i could've requested a jumpseat for her, but i feel so helpless now...
Worrying in agony....
Thursday, 24 January 2008
如果你还爱我
我带着一颗疲惫的心走了
我知道自己在你心里已不重要
虽然我们曾经相聚过
也许对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆
我带着一颗沉重的心走了
我知道自己没有勇气道别离
虽然我们曾经拥有过
但是对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆
难道早以注定
不能真正拥有你
难道我真心付出一切
只为了承受孤单和寂寞
我知道你不敢对我坦白
是不要看到我的伤怀
虽然你没有说要离开我
我已经感到你不再属于我
如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
我只能含着眼泪
默默的离开
Boredom...
I'm so bored right now. Regretted not arranging to leave on Friday. I could have and should have...
Have been spending time watching dramas on crunchyroll. It's nice, i watched a korean and a taiwanese drama. Romance drama as usual...
Received news from Jamie that she'll be getting married in June. Ask me if i could make it or not. I wish i can, she will be my first friend getting married. I believe there'll be many more couples followed by her.... so sweet...
Now, i wish that i have a sleeping pill that can make me sleep all the way until Sunday morning.....
Have been spending time watching dramas on crunchyroll. It's nice, i watched a korean and a taiwanese drama. Romance drama as usual...
Received news from Jamie that she'll be getting married in June. Ask me if i could make it or not. I wish i can, she will be my first friend getting married. I believe there'll be many more couples followed by her.... so sweet...
Now, i wish that i have a sleeping pill that can make me sleep all the way until Sunday morning.....
Tuesday, 22 January 2008
Nice Evening... i wanna cry...
Had a very bad day... Went to settle my admin stuff at the head office. Ran around from office to office. Damn tiring. Stupid company, torturing us before we leave....
Slept at 5 plus in the morning last night, watching dvd with Raine at my place. Woke up at 8am to go to the bank and headed to the office after tat. Came home after 3pm and totally knocked out until evening time...
Met up with my dear friends for dinner. Participants: Serena, Raine, Pony, Elena, Juliet and me... it was nice. All of us had the same dish, Sirloin Steak and lots of drinks...
Elena and i resigned, so the girls were so nice to buy us the dinner... Really touched... Thanks girls....
I'm so gonna miss all this girls. They're all so nice. Raine, my best fren here. Serena my best singapore fren. Pony, someone who always bickers with me, but i always have good times with her. All this people made me so sad to gonna leave them here....
Such a nice evening, plus a call from Peng that he's gonna buy me a longchamp bag in Frankfurt....*happy* He bought a lime green medium size longchamp bag...yeah!!!
Shah came to join us late after dinner. Bought us drinks, including 2 tequilla shots... It's the first time i had tequilla. Nv drank it before, but i'm glad i'm not drunk after tat.
Played a few pool games at the challenger table, and really glad that i played well today, at least up to my standard.... :>
Slept at 5 plus in the morning last night, watching dvd with Raine at my place. Woke up at 8am to go to the bank and headed to the office after tat. Came home after 3pm and totally knocked out until evening time...
Met up with my dear friends for dinner. Participants: Serena, Raine, Pony, Elena, Juliet and me... it was nice. All of us had the same dish, Sirloin Steak and lots of drinks...
Elena and i resigned, so the girls were so nice to buy us the dinner... Really touched... Thanks girls....
I'm so gonna miss all this girls. They're all so nice. Raine, my best fren here. Serena my best singapore fren. Pony, someone who always bickers with me, but i always have good times with her. All this people made me so sad to gonna leave them here....
Such a nice evening, plus a call from Peng that he's gonna buy me a longchamp bag in Frankfurt....*happy* He bought a lime green medium size longchamp bag...yeah!!!
Shah came to join us late after dinner. Bought us drinks, including 2 tequilla shots... It's the first time i had tequilla. Nv drank it before, but i'm glad i'm not drunk after tat.
Played a few pool games at the challenger table, and really glad that i played well today, at least up to my standard.... :>
Saturday, 19 January 2008
Red, White, Blue big paper bag...
Raine's off today, so she accompanied me to search for the Legendary 'Red, White, Blue big paper bag'(direct translation from chinese). It's those huge china plastic bags that has a zipper , and many old fashion people will use them to carry stuff.
I've returned my company's cargo bag, so i'm only left with one cargo bag that i brought from singapore. So i decided to use the big plastic bag to store all my clothes and check it into cargo. Anyway my clothes won't be ruined without the protection of hard-cover bags, so it'd save me more weight using the plastic bag instead, since i only have 60kg allowance.
Our trip wasn't wasted. Managed to buy it at Hamdan street, a place that looks like lucky plaza. Bought 2 bags in the end, thinking that maybe the bag might tear, so double layer would be safer...
So when i return to singapore carrying that bag out from the conveyor belt, people will really think that i'm "Made in China"....
I've returned my company's cargo bag, so i'm only left with one cargo bag that i brought from singapore. So i decided to use the big plastic bag to store all my clothes and check it into cargo. Anyway my clothes won't be ruined without the protection of hard-cover bags, so it'd save me more weight using the plastic bag instead, since i only have 60kg allowance.
Our trip wasn't wasted. Managed to buy it at Hamdan street, a place that looks like lucky plaza. Bought 2 bags in the end, thinking that maybe the bag might tear, so double layer would be safer...
So when i return to singapore carrying that bag out from the conveyor belt, people will really think that i'm "Made in China"....
Friday, 18 January 2008
First day after last flight
Time seems to be going by so slowly. Still have 10 days to go before my flight home. Feeling extremely excited, nervous, tired, sad and emotional...
I hope for time to fly, so that i can start my new life sooner. On the other hand, i hope for time to stop so that i can spend more time with my dearest friends in AUH before i finally leave them.
I felt obliged, so i went out with Filzah last night. It's like my last time out with her in AUH. Last time to see her dance and last time to accompany her. She'll be heading to phuket tmr, so i wont see her until our flight back to singapore. She'll be going back with me to sin for 4 days.
I didn't dance at all. Just drank a little and watch her dance. She used to be a traditional malay dance teacher, so her moves are very beautiful. We took some pictures and went home early. Met Elie and shah and some other friends as well. Everyone was happy for me....
http://janiceblog.multiply.com/photos/album/10
I hope for time to fly, so that i can start my new life sooner. On the other hand, i hope for time to stop so that i can spend more time with my dearest friends in AUH before i finally leave them.
I felt obliged, so i went out with Filzah last night. It's like my last time out with her in AUH. Last time to see her dance and last time to accompany her. She'll be heading to phuket tmr, so i wont see her until our flight back to singapore. She'll be going back with me to sin for 4 days.
I didn't dance at all. Just drank a little and watch her dance. She used to be a traditional malay dance teacher, so her moves are very beautiful. We took some pictures and went home early. Met Elie and shah and some other friends as well. Everyone was happy for me....
http://janiceblog.multiply.com/photos/album/10
Wednesday, 16 January 2008
Last Flight....
When everything turns out the way you want it, life just seemed so wonderful.... *fingers crossed*
Supposed to go for Casablanca for my last flight, but i called up to do Frankfurt on my standby the day before. I was delighted, because i was having headache how to call sick for my Casablanca flight. I heard so much stories about Moroccan passengers that i dread to do it on my last flight with Etihad.
Came back this morning and supposed to have 2 more standbys tmr and the day after, but the frankfurt is my self-declared last flight.... hee..
It's a nice flight to do. I get it on my roster every month. And i was hoping that i'll be assigned galley position, and the cabin manager did put me in galley. Am i lucky or wat??
Flight turned out good. Everyone was nice and i had one extra crew to help me with everything, so that made my work much easier.
But on the flight back, i was feeling a bit moody. I guess it's normal to feel weird on my last flight with Etihad. The mixture of excitement and a bit of sad feeling.
I've been in AUH for 9 months, it's not a long period, but it's not tat short either. Kinda have sense of belonging with some friends here, and the thought of not sharing my life with them anymore makes me really sad... like my heart is crying every now and then....
10 more days to go before i finally head home, for good. Still have alot of things to settle with the company, and i shall make use of these few days to catch up with my darlings in AUH.... *sob sob*
Supposed to go for Casablanca for my last flight, but i called up to do Frankfurt on my standby the day before. I was delighted, because i was having headache how to call sick for my Casablanca flight. I heard so much stories about Moroccan passengers that i dread to do it on my last flight with Etihad.
Came back this morning and supposed to have 2 more standbys tmr and the day after, but the frankfurt is my self-declared last flight.... hee..
It's a nice flight to do. I get it on my roster every month. And i was hoping that i'll be assigned galley position, and the cabin manager did put me in galley. Am i lucky or wat??
Flight turned out good. Everyone was nice and i had one extra crew to help me with everything, so that made my work much easier.
But on the flight back, i was feeling a bit moody. I guess it's normal to feel weird on my last flight with Etihad. The mixture of excitement and a bit of sad feeling.
I've been in AUH for 9 months, it's not a long period, but it's not tat short either. Kinda have sense of belonging with some friends here, and the thought of not sharing my life with them anymore makes me really sad... like my heart is crying every now and then....
10 more days to go before i finally head home, for good. Still have alot of things to settle with the company, and i shall make use of these few days to catch up with my darlings in AUH.... *sob sob*
Friday, 11 January 2008
Finally!!!
Finally after a couple of years, i have my dream come true....
I'm not sure if i'll get use to the culture again, but it's definitely a good thing that i'm finally fulfilling my dream and finally going home again....
It's been really a long road for me. If not for the dream to fly, i won't be in silkair(cos i can't get into SQ). If not for silkair, i won't get into etihad. If not for etihad, i won't finally get into SQ for the fact that i broke my bond with silkair....
i feel so relieved now, finally passing through all the interviews and not being honest with my application. It's definitely a roller coaster ride...
But all the ups and downs are definitely worth it... Experience a lot during this period.... Now I'm looking forward to a new beginning...
I'm not sure if i'll get use to the culture again, but it's definitely a good thing that i'm finally fulfilling my dream and finally going home again....
It's been really a long road for me. If not for the dream to fly, i won't be in silkair(cos i can't get into SQ). If not for silkair, i won't get into etihad. If not for etihad, i won't finally get into SQ for the fact that i broke my bond with silkair....
i feel so relieved now, finally passing through all the interviews and not being honest with my application. It's definitely a roller coaster ride...
But all the ups and downs are definitely worth it... Experience a lot during this period.... Now I'm looking forward to a new beginning...
Tuesday, 8 January 2008
The Long Waiting
Has been a hell of a ride for me these few days. From the beginning of the year till now. Nothing negative yet, but *Fingers Crossed*!! Has been quite lucky so far actually, but the final outcome is yet to announce, still waiting in agony.
Finally made it to SQ interview, again. Couldn't make it for the original invitation on 27th Dec '07, so they re-invited for the next one which happened to be on the 3rd Jan '08. I was happy and excited. By hook or by crook i had to attend that interview. In the end i did, made a huge lie of my brother getting married and took emergency leave from the company.
So i went. Passed the first round with ease, followed by the kebaya and then the 1 to 1 interview. Passed everything, and requested for myself to be squeezed into the management interview slot on the same day. It was the management interview for the group who went for their first interview on the 27th dec, so i was really lucky to not have gone for that interview... *phew*
In the end they managed to slot me in the same day, and here u go, i passed the entire interview within a single day!!! *TADA* Went for my medical check up the following day, which was my dad's birthday as well. Everything was fine, until i received an email from a Cabin Crew Executive asking me to call her back.
Funny thing is, i didn't put down my hotmail email address, but the email was sent to that account. Hmmm..... As u can guess, they found out that i was from Silkair, but i failed to declare that in my application. And so, that lady asked me why and i told her the truth.
All she said was to ask me to send her an email and state that i forgot to mention in my application form that i was working for silkair. And so i did, and finally got a reply today, to continue waiting.....
Waiting and waiting and waiting... Like Gayle mentioned, this is probably the best situation that i could have been in, so i'll just wait for the outcome, regardless of good or bad... If i'd declared myself initially, probability is high that i wouldn't even have come this far. It's good news, to think on the bright side. But i haven been a bright person for a long, long time....... so it's hard....
Finally made it to SQ interview, again. Couldn't make it for the original invitation on 27th Dec '07, so they re-invited for the next one which happened to be on the 3rd Jan '08. I was happy and excited. By hook or by crook i had to attend that interview. In the end i did, made a huge lie of my brother getting married and took emergency leave from the company.
So i went. Passed the first round with ease, followed by the kebaya and then the 1 to 1 interview. Passed everything, and requested for myself to be squeezed into the management interview slot on the same day. It was the management interview for the group who went for their first interview on the 27th dec, so i was really lucky to not have gone for that interview... *phew*
In the end they managed to slot me in the same day, and here u go, i passed the entire interview within a single day!!! *TADA* Went for my medical check up the following day, which was my dad's birthday as well. Everything was fine, until i received an email from a Cabin Crew Executive asking me to call her back.
Funny thing is, i didn't put down my hotmail email address, but the email was sent to that account. Hmmm..... As u can guess, they found out that i was from Silkair, but i failed to declare that in my application. And so, that lady asked me why and i told her the truth.
All she said was to ask me to send her an email and state that i forgot to mention in my application form that i was working for silkair. And so i did, and finally got a reply today, to continue waiting.....
Waiting and waiting and waiting... Like Gayle mentioned, this is probably the best situation that i could have been in, so i'll just wait for the outcome, regardless of good or bad... If i'd declared myself initially, probability is high that i wouldn't even have come this far. It's good news, to think on the bright side. But i haven been a bright person for a long, long time....... so it's hard....
Monday, 7 January 2008
Stressed out...
I'm so stressed out right now. I feel like throwing tantrum at everyone. Everyone seemed against me. I'm tired....
Like i said before, if I dun make it, i dun think we can make it either... So let's not make me say anything when tat happens. You'll know wat i mean when it happens. Give me an easier path...
Mentally stressed out. Physically exhausted. Financially broke. Emotionally lonely.
How much worser can i feel?
Like i said before, if I dun make it, i dun think we can make it either... So let's not make me say anything when tat happens. You'll know wat i mean when it happens. Give me an easier path...
Mentally stressed out. Physically exhausted. Financially broke. Emotionally lonely.
How much worser can i feel?
Saturday, 5 January 2008
Agony
There's so much in life that you want, but things just doesn't work accordingly to as planned.
Trying so hard... Barriers after Barriers...
It's when u know u can do it, but yet u can't.... Leaving u in agony....
I've wanted so much to be there... So that i can solve the rest of the problems, but it's not within my control anymore...
To be home... To be with u again.... It's like a dream for me now... So near yet so far....
I know i was the start of everything. I've created a path so hard to walk and wat's the point of regretting now? I can only wait for others to give me a chance, or not.... and it's like waiting for the verdict from the judge...
Agony and agony....
Trying so hard... Barriers after Barriers...
It's when u know u can do it, but yet u can't.... Leaving u in agony....
I've wanted so much to be there... So that i can solve the rest of the problems, but it's not within my control anymore...
To be home... To be with u again.... It's like a dream for me now... So near yet so far....
I know i was the start of everything. I've created a path so hard to walk and wat's the point of regretting now? I can only wait for others to give me a chance, or not.... and it's like waiting for the verdict from the judge...
Agony and agony....
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