Slow death....

Been 3 days since i left Singapore. Went to Paris the night after i reach AUH and came back this morning. It was a tiring period for me, both physically and mentally.

The 9 days slot in singapore was exhausting, cos i had very little sleep, as i really wanted to maximise my time in SG. And immediately after i came back from the flight, i had a 12hrs Paris Layover. Paris used to be a 24hr layover, now it's changed to 12, can't believe it.

I even went to gym during my stay. Wanted to go to Eiffel tower, but no one wanna go due to the very short time, thus i only get to spend some time in gym. On standby again tmr, wonder what horrible flight they will give me again. Keep my fingers crossed. But the good news is, our salary is going to raise quite alot. Looking forward to it.

I've really tormented myself enough during the past few weeks. Drowning myself in sorrow, feeling depressed all the time. Vexing over the same problem. Now i'm back here, not having the same kinda feeling anymore. I'm feeling really tired and quite emotionless now.

Too much of sadness will end up numbing the feelings. Thus i'm really over-exhausted and not very much thinking about things anymore. I'm not even viewing both their friendster profiles and other stalking activities anymore.

Guess everyone is right, it's really better not knowing so much. I used to think that if it's the truth, i have to know. And after knowing, it led to so many actions that eventually pushed him away, making everyone step more difficult. And the worst part is, i'm unable to do anything despite knowing so much.

Now, i only hope for things to be better. I dun wanna know anything anymore. I just wanna live life a more peaceful way. I'm really tired, mentally. If it's not gonna work out, like wat 99% of the people think, then be it. I'm really tired, not gonna try anymore stunts anymore...

If a slow death is wat it is, then there's nothing much i can do too. I've done my best...